An alcoholic’s daughter? Yup, that is me!
I don’t know why you tear me up inside
I don’t know why you seem to not understand
I don’t know when you became one of them
Nor do I know how to make you come out of the den
But why me, why me and not someone else?
It could be her, it could be him, but no, you chose it to be me
Your lonely target I was, intentional it may not have been
Unintentionally let it be, but I was the target you had thought it should be
Was it my mistake that you be my father?
Behind bars should I be for being the daughter of a man like you?
Guilt should overshadow me, or sin bewilder my head for wanting you to live
Life if it took, I would fight death itself to have you by my side
The daughter of an alcoholic, yes that is me
Whose fault is it that I am at the centre of
My mistake? I don’t know, rectify it I would if I could
But nothing was my choice but pure chance
Why this much love father, why this much
Too much I see it is, hurting to hold on
I wish I could let go and fly to the skies
But I am bound by a restriction now called affection
The time I saw you fall head over heels to the ground
That was the day that my inner conscience was shattered
Broken into too many bits and pieces it was too hard to find
Letting go was easier than searching low and high!
I was lost that day, lost forever
The glass of dreams that I had engrossed myself in had been shattered
My world slipped away right under my feet
Too quick like sand through my fingers
How could you foul-mouth me? Is it proof of pure love?
I wish I knew, I could have answered the breaking barrier of innocence
Were you not supposed to be the man I ran to when in need?
Then how could you forget that you were my inner strength
As a child I remember spending long hours trying to imagine
Trying to fool myself that it was all a play rehearsal
It was my mother and sister that you raised your hand at
You should have known better, after all I was only a little one
Running away I would have if I could
But mum’s pain was too much that it overshadowed mine I guess
Who was she going through all this for? After all I was one reason holding her back
Why this much pain, stop hurting us, we don’t want to live in this constant vein
Come out of it now, now it must be
Any later, then there is no need for turning back
For once when you will turn if not now, nothing will remain, even the trail
Let it go, it is a demon, eating not only you but us from within
Give us some peace, at least now give it to us
Learn that without you there is no happiness for us
Understand your importance, we are tired of explaining
Come back and be the rise of the sun, bringing with you the rays of joy